Sunday, September 25, 2011

I am in love with change

     I am so in love with change, my wanderlust is constant, strong, and dreamy. I have spent too many hours feeling as though my desire to mix things up is a negative character trait when the reality is that all of my moves have made me a better; more open; dynamic; and adaptable person. I turn thirty in seven months and with that comes these notions of societal (or is it all internal?) pressure to settle down. I want to spend more meditation on growth which translates to constant change for me. Of course, I want graduate school, eventually a phd and professor position, write a great book or four, and maybe a husband someday but those will come with the full acceptance of self or else they are not for me.
     I am currently in Austin, Texas finding an apartment and job and giddy with anticipation. It feels new, scary, and full of potential. I love Seattle more than Paris if that is possible but cannot wait to see who I will be this time next year having tried out Austin. Thinking of where the last ten years have brought me (Seattle, Paris and Europe, Mexico, Canada, Dutch Harbor, AK/Yukon, and beyond) makes me smile.
     Spending this last spring/summer as a tour director throughout Alaska/Yukon was amazing! I took on something new and loved it while exceeding the expectations which I had placed on myself. I met amazing people and felt like I did my best to help them have a wonderful vacation. I hope to be invited back next season. It blends a few of my favorite things: travel, making new friends, helping the public, seeing more of Alaska, getting back into nature, etc.
So cheers to change and growth and may we all love ourselves!
Big love,
Randy